Monday, March 23, 2015

Monkey Beach + Muka Head Lighthouse

 When you're feeling down or not in the mood, I always think that the best way to come out of it is to spend a few good hours engaged in an interesting activity with your friends or family.

In my case, I decided to go hiking with my best friends and sister. When my friend first suggested hiking to Monkey Beach and to the lighthouse at Muka Head, I was a bit sceptical as I knew I was a bit unfit to be hiking up and I was dreading the after effects of the hike but I thought why not because that's how you gain experiences and build memories, right?

So, sis and I woke up at 6.45am, got ready, picked up two friends on the way and headed to another friend's house who would be driving up to Teluk Bahang where the Penang National Park is located. This was our first hike together and our first time to Monkey Beach. We're generally not an outdoors kind of group and  bearing in mind that we don't exercise much, this was indeed a challenge for us but it was a good bonding session/team building exercise for all of us.

The hike up to Monkey Beach was not too bad. The one that killed us was the hike up to the lighthouse! We almost wanted to give up halfway through as well! Thankfully, we also met a great bunch of people who so graciously helped us at a few difficult spots and even volunteered to walk behind us so that they could back us up and help us along the way (Big shout out to Ryan and the gang!!) !

 Here are a few pictures from our trip up to Monkey Beach and the Lighthouse!

At the start of our journey!

Journey to the lighthouse!
Pit-stop for a photo on the way down from the Lighthouse!
The Lighthouse at Muka Head!! :-)
Monkey Beach! :-)
Steering the boat back to Teluk Bahang at the end of our journey!
Overall, it was an interesting day for all of us and that few hours I spent with some of my favourite people really took my mind off things for a while. Sometimes, the simplest things in life can give you so much joy.

If you haven't been to Monkey Beach or to the Lighthouse at Muka Head, do try it out. If I can do it, you can too!

Have a great week ahead, friends!

Friday, March 20, 2015

Quarter Life Crisis

This year, I will be turning a quarter of a century. The big 25. Half of fifty. Wow.

At the start of the year, I was so sure that this was gonna be an awesome year for me. I found someone special, I was surrounded by a great group of friends, I had my family with me and life was good.

The only factor troubling me since mid last year was my job. 2014 started out great but in May, my life at work just went downhill. Almost everyone in my department left for better opportunities and I was left to carry the burden all by myself with some help from another colleague. November came, and that colleague also left and I was once again all alone.

Being in a department that focuses on fundraising for an organisation, it is certainly not easy trying to juggle the job scope of 3 people. I kept hanging on and told myself that things would fall into place. At the end of the year, we had two new recruits but sadly, even though I made one new good friend from that new recruits but alas, they too didn't last.

So, after months of juggling on my own and feeling unhappy with what I was doing, I made the bold move to step away from everything and handed in my resignation letter. I had reached that point where I was feeling burned out and taken advantage of. If you know me, I am certainly not the type to just give up on something (3 years in my first job!) and I always need a plan B but for me to have reached this point in my life, I knew I had no other choice but to move on.

It's coming to almost 3 weeks since I left my job and I have to say that I am happy that I left but as of late, with all this extra free time on my hand, I have been reflecting a lot on my life and where life is going to be taking me.

Have you ever felt like you don't know where you are heading in life and you just feel so lost? You don't exactly know what you want to do and what will make you happy? Well, that is exactly how I am feeling right now.

Coming from a mass communication background, I realise that I have so many options in front of me but I feel like I can't figure out what I want to do. I am still young and I have the future open wide for me and I know I should take this opportunity to explore every given opportunity. But, I feel like I have this fear in me that is making me doubt my capabilities. Being in the same job for the past three years also kept me in my comfort zone and now the thought of starting over in a new place and learning everything from scratch scares me a bit.

So, right now, I feel like I am drifting, unsure of where to go and what to do. As a result of these feelings, my emotions have been a bit haywire as of late. My friends have been super awesome trying to give me advice and telling me their experiences of how they were in similar situations before.

A few people have told me that an idle mind is the devil's workshop and I am starting to believe that to be true. I want to believe that eventually everything will fall into place but right now, it's hard to do that when all seem so lost.

I think right now, I just need to take a deep breathe, keep the faith and trust that God has bigger plans for me.